A Look Into My Life

Craftybabyhope 25% off ALL store items CHECK IT OUT

2012-01-14T14:12:00.000-07:00

I am having a store wide sale over at ArtFire. Ger a wopping 25% off all items in my studio this week. I have a range of cool items. I will list a few here for you. So go on over to CraftyBabyHope on ArtFire to check it out!!!

And that is just a tast of some of the items you will find.

Thank you for your support.

Emily is 7 weeks old today.

2011-10-25T12:11:00.000-07:00

WOW 7 weeks today. The last 7 weeks have gone by super fast. I found my camera so I wanted to post some pics of my little one for everyone to enjoy.

My prayers were answered. She is such a wonderful gift. We love her dearly.

Baby Dust to All!!!

31 Weeks and 2 Days and Cloth Diapering

2011-07-13T14:50:00.000-07:00

Today marks 31 weeks and 2 days into my pregnancy. I pray every day for the baby. After having so many miscarriages it is hard to just be happy and not to worry. 8 weeks to go. The C-Section is scheduled for September 6th.

I have decided to cloth diaper with this little one. I am making my own cloth diaper stash. I will post pictures of the stash once I find my darn camera. I really like the RRP (Rita Rump Pocket) pattern. I have made about 15 of them so far and working on more. The pattern is easy to follow and sew. Great one size fits most cloth diaper pattern. It is all in the way you fold the diaper for sizing. The more you fold the smaller the diaper and you can choose how much and what to stuff the diaper with. You can find the RRP pattern HERE. If you choose as I did to use a snappi instead of pins you will need to use a fabric that the snappi teeth can attach to.

These are some pictures from the RRP website showing the diaper on little ones. They are so cute. For my diapers I modified the pattern slightly. First I added elastic to the back of the diaper and made the pocket opening in the front. This is better for me when it comes to sizing and I am going to be breast feeding my little one. The elastic in the back will prevent those breast feed baby blow outs. LOL

Sorry it has been so long since I posted. I will try to make sure to post more often.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Big Update... Boy or a Girl??

2011-04-23T15:36:00.001-07:00

OK This is another big update. On the 22nd I went in for my 20 week sono scan. This scan was a BIG one. During this visit we got to look at everything. First we looked at the baby's head and brain. Everything looked great. Then we moved on to the spine and spinal cord. Everything looked great. Next we looked at the baby's abdomen and organs. Everything was the correct size, shape and location. Then we got to look at the baby's bones and everything looked great there as well. We got to look at the baby's hands and feet. We even got to see the baby's little toes and fingers. Next we looked at the baby's heart and umbilical cord. Everything was perfect. AMAZING!! After checking everything else the tech asked me if we wanted to know if the baby is a boy or a girl. I was SOOOOO excited to see that I told her "PLEASE I want to know". She smiled and we began searching for the gender............

IT'S A GIRL!!!!

We are SOOO happy that the scan went so well. As soon as I find my darn camera I will post the sono pictures for everyone to see.

Baby Dust To ALL!!!

Am I having a girl OR a boy?

2011-04-12T15:24:00.000-07:00

Is the baby a boy or a girl?? This is the question everyone is asking. Including me. LOL This is what we hope to answer on the 14th. Just a few days from now we will find out that is if baby lets us. HEHEHE I will post the results as soon as I can. Stay posted and check back to see the results.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Surprise Update and Big Wonders

2011-04-02T20:10:00.000-07:00

Well I have a BIG secrete I want to share with everyone. I am pregnant!! Today I am 16 weeks and 5 days. This is a major thing for me. I have had 5 miscarriages in the last 5 years. Each one I have not gotten past 8 weeks and 3 days. On the 14th we are going to find out if the baby is a boy or a girl. We are super excited. I did not want to revile our big secrete until we were past the point of were we had gotten to in the past. In 2 weeks I have an appointment with the high risk doctors for more Sono scans.

I have a fetal doppler that I use at home between appointments and let me tell you it really helps to put the mind at ease. Any time I am feeling nurvious about the baby I check the heart beat. Being able to hear the little one is a wonderful thing. It really puts the mind at ease. Up until now I have had weekly appointments with my OB and now I am seeing the Doc every 3 weeks. So that is my big surprise and update.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Christmas is almost here

2010-12-20T23:42:00.001-07:00

Can you believe it another year is almost over and Christmas is almost here. It feels like yesterday we were watching the Ball drop ringing in 2010. As I look back at all that has happened in 2010 I can not help but be sad. 2010 was not a good year for me so I am going to look forward to 2011. I am glad for having that crappy job for the time that I did have it. I was able to get the things for Christmas that I would not have been able to. Yes I am going to miss the added income. But I am not going to miss all the drama. As for the money I am owed I have filled a claim with the labor board against the company. I was told by the labor board that I have a claim and they are investigating the company to get the money that I am owed. This I can smile about. They say everything happens for a reason and I feel my reason for going through this is to make sure that it does not happen to anyone else.

Baby Dust to ALL!!

Update: Happy Again

2010-12-08T21:37:00.000-07:00

Well I am no longer with the company that was causing me problems. Right now I am unemployed again. But I am ok with that. I would rather not be in a situation with drama all around me.

Merry Christmas!!

Baby Dust to all!!

Today's Thoughts

2010-11-30T22:05:00.001-07:00

What is it about being in an office with a bunch of women and drama? I for one hate drama. I would rather go swimming in a vat of acid than to have drama around me. It causes undue stress. If you are in this situation is it really worth it? My husband wants me to continue to work for this company, but I can think of many reasons that it is best to walk away. Sure the owners say how needed I am, they say they are so happy to have me, and they say how much I am worth to them. But, if I am worth so much then why is it that I am told that due to them spending too much money on a home they just bought I am not getting a raise. Also I busted my but and stayed late every night doing data entry for them on the new software program. You know what? I did not even get overtime for all that overtime work. I was told sorry the family does not pay overtime so it will be paid at your regular hourly rate. That is against labor laws!! Come on!! I for one am done busting my but for a company that will not even pay me for what I am worth. They also want me to train everyone on the new program. WHY?? So I can get nothing in return! Not me! My eyes are now OPEN!! Sorry for all the fussing I just needed to get things off my chest.

What do you think of this situation??

Super Big Blog Giveaway

2010-07-10T18:16:00.002-07:00

This is all the goodies that I am giving away on my Jewelry for Hope blog http://craftybabyhope.blogspot.com Head over and enter to WIN!!

There is still time so enter now!!!!

New Job Starting Monday

2010-07-10T11:54:00.000-07:00

Well I start my new job on Monday and I have to say I am getting a bit nervous. LOL I know I can do the job that is not a problem at all. It is just the meeting new people and being in a new place. I have a bunch of ideas to make things easier for everyone in the office. I have been in talks with the boss and she is excited to get me started and going. With as much computer knowledge as I have and my web building capabilities I know I am going to be super busy at work. It has been a bit since I was in a office but I am sure I will fit right in. WOW I can not believe I have butterflies. Wish me luck everyone.

On a side note I will be adding a giveaway to my Jewelry blog so keep an eye out. :)

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Going Back to Work

2010-06-23T16:10:00.000-07:00

With the money situation the way it is right now I can no longer afford to stay home with Boober. We are in the process of securing day care for summer so that I can start my new job in 2 weeks. This is going to be very hard for me and for Boober. I will not be able to home school him any longer which means he will be returning to a public or charter school. The good news is that the job pays very well and it will get us out of the financial situation we are in. Right now we are sinking fast and can not seem to get our heads above water. The breaking point for me was when we realized if I do not go back to work we are going to lose our house. I will make dang sure the school Boober gets put into will have special classes for his disabilities. I hate to be put into this situation. But this is for the best.

I will still be creating handmade items to sale on my online store to raise money for infertility treatments. This will not change. The money in that fund will go to nothing else but the treatments I am receiving for infertility. I am sure I am going to love it at this new job and I hope everything works out for the best. God has a plan for us and I am not giving up. Hope will prevail!

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Life Moves On

2010-05-26T15:49:00.000-07:00

Today is cycle day 9 and I did not ovulate last month. Damn this PCOS. It is so very frustrating that my body does not function like it should. I can not take the metformin any longer due to the side effects, so this is not an option for me. We are in the process of changing out insurance. I am not sure if the new coverage will cover at least some of the cost of infertility treatments yet. I do know that the coverage will be better and no more fighting with the insurance company to get them to pay for things that they are suppose to. This is a real pain in the butt. We pay a lot of money to have coverage and the insurance company will not pay for anything. Fighting with them takes a toll on me. I will update when I know more.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!
Jennifer

Day 3 of AF and Cub Scout Camping Trip

2010-05-21T23:06:00.003-07:00

Well af arrived 3 days ago and I am a big ball of cramps. I thought I ovulated last month but I was wrong. :( I am just glad it held off till after we were back from the cub scout camping trip.

I wanted to share some pictures of the camping trip with you today as well. Boober had a BLAST!! He made so many new friends. It was great. Boober is going to be a Bear :)

Getting ready for the Flag Ceremony.

The troop is gathering in the center of camp.

Here comes the flag as the troops salute.

Here is the troops receiving instructions for the treasure hunt. The kids had so much fun. The treasure was candy and water balloons and water guns. Yes I got wet with them. LOL

That is Boober in the green shirt right up front. He has not gotten his uniform yet. We hope to have it in 2 weeks.

This is our tent. If you look close you can see Libby inside taking a brake from all the excitement.

There she is. LOL When I moved the tent door to take the picture it let the light in. She was out with the troop for most of the trip and needed a break.

We were all tired from the trip and slept for most of the next day. I do not think Boober has been so quiet in his life. LOL He was pooped.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!!!

Are we forgetting our DH when TTC?

2010-05-01T23:55:00.000-07:00

Are we forgetting our DH (dear husband) when TTC (trying to conceive)?

Now I know we know they are there. We need them to do that baby dance. LOL
What I mean is are we forgetting that TTC is hard on our DH as well?Lets see some of the things that they worry about.
The pressure to preform on demand.
I bet it is hard for them when we are telling them things like: "Come on lets do this real quick the stick says I am ovulating." "We need to do it now I am ovulating and that egg does not stick around long." "No time for foreplay we are TTC." "Get over here so we can baby dance."
I am sure there are tons more but you get the idea.
When we start TTC the fun leaves and it becomes a have to instead of a want to. As a woman I am thinking about ovulation, body temperature, posture, best position for fertilization, and much more. You know they realize they are only a tool in this mind set. I think it is best for us to stop and think about bringing the love and play back into the bed room and taking some of the pressure off. This will lower the level of stress we all feel. You know DH picks up on the stress. Take a day and spend it romancing you man and tell him how much he means to you. He is a part of this struggle to conceive as much as we are. Face it ladies we need our DH and we love them very much.

Baby Dust to ALL!!

Flower Buttons from Polymer Clay How to Video

2010-04-23T04:12:00.001-07:00

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In this video I show you how to make a simple flower button. Quick and easy. My Studio: http://craftybabyhope.artfire.com My Blog: http://craftybabyhope.blogspot.com

Almost 35 OMG Am I getting to OLD

2010-04-14T00:17:00.000-07:00

I am almost 35 now and that nagging feeling that time is running out is weighing heavy on my mind. I know God has a plan for me. I just wish he would let me in on it. I can not help but think about my age. Hubby keeps telling me it is ok and that we are not giving up yet. I told him I am not giving up hope but I just worry so much. I have so many issues now and as I get older are they going to get worse? God please do not let things get worse only better. I can do this! We can do this!

Baby Dust to ALL!!

New Political Party

2010-04-11T15:12:00.001-07:00

I received this in e-mail and I wanted to pass it on. Since as of late I have only had comments from spammers :( I hope everyone sees something in here to chat or think about. Even if it is something you do not agree with at least it will make you think:

Not Democrat, Not Republican, Not Independent.
It's called the "PISSED OFF PARTY" (or POP).
This party is dedicated to vote every incumbent out of office in the next elections.
If you're Democrat, vote Democrat. Just don't vote for the incumbent.
If you're Republican, vote Republican. Just don't vote for the incumbent.
We need to send a message to all politicians, that we're tired of their B.S.
If the country votes out all the incumbents, the new incoming politicians will get the message..
It's pretty simple. Nobody needs to change parties and lets face it, there's plenty of blame to spread around.
A few good politicians will lose their job but they probably have better retirement and insurance then 95% of the American public.
You've had to struggle for the last 5 years. Some of you have lost your job and may be working in some other sector just to feed your family.
I guarantee you, none of them will suffer like this country has.
If you like whats going on and think this is a bad idea, delete this.
But if you're fed up and think this is a good idea, then pass this E-mail on.
If you really think this has legs then a website and a blog could help get the word out.
Read this part Here's an irritated Senior!!

This should be read and understood by all Americans Democrats, Republicans, EVERYONE!!

To All 535 voting members of the Legislature; it is now official you are ALL corrupt morons:

   a.. The U.S. Post Service was established in 1775. You have had 234 years to get it right and it is broke.
   b.. Social Security was established in 1935.. You have had 74 years to get it right and it is broke.
   c.. Fannie Mae was established in 1938. You have had 71 years to get it right and it is broke.
   d.. War on Poverty started in 1964. You have had 45 years to get it right; $1 trillion of our money is confiscated each year and transferred to "the poor" and they only want more.
   e.. Medicare and Medicaid were established in 1965. You have had 44 years to get it right and they are broke.
   f. Freddie Mac was established in 1970. You have had 39 years to get it right and it is broke.
   g.. The Department of Energy was created in 1977 to lessen our dependence on foreign oil. It has ballooned to 16,000 employees with a budget of $24 billion a year and we import more oil than ever before. You had 32 years to get it right and it is an abysmal failure.

You have FAILED in every "government service" you have shoved down our throats while overspending our tax dollars AND YOU WANT AMERICANS TO BELIEVE YOU CAN BE TRUSTED WITH A GOVERNMENT-RUN HEALTH CARE SYSTEM? IT'S NOT ABOUT THE NEED FOR GOOD HEALTH CARE, IT'S ABOUT TRUSTING THE GOVERNMENT TO RUN IT.

Folks, keep this circulating. It is very well stated. Maybe it will end up in the e-mails of some of our "duly elected' and their staff (they never read anything) will clue them in on how Americans feel

Have a fantastic day and Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Questions that were asked - What are my conditions

2010-03-28T02:47:00.000-07:00

I have received a few e-mails asking what exactly are my conditions. I know I have posted this before but it has been a good long time and since I have been getting these questions I thought what the heck. I will make a special post about it. So this is going to be that post. So if you have asked me questions about what the symbols and big words mean this post is for you and of course anyone else interested to know a little more.

Lets start with PCOS. PCOS means polycystic ovary syndrome. This diagnosis carries with it significant health risks for women. It is estimated to be present in 5 to 7 percent of reproductive age women. The majotity of women with PCOS have anovulation. Which means we can not or do not ovulate like we should. Which means if we can not ovulate right we can not get pregnant. It also leads to longer or shorter cycles with heavy bleeding in most cases. The worst thing about this condition is pregnancy loss. The miscarriage rate in women with PCOS is about one third of all pregnancies. This is at least double the rate of women without PCOS. The hard part is the reasoning behind this is unclear. With PCOS we have elevated LH Levels, not enough progesterone secretion, abnormal embryos and abnormal endometrium. Lets not forget that most women with PCOS have insulin resistance. There is more but you get the picture. So far not so good right.

Now we will continue with Endometriosis. Endometriosis is a common gynecologic disorder that affects approximately 14% of all women and 30% to 50% of infertile women. The most common symptoms of endometriosis are chronic pelvic pain, progressive dysmenorrhea, dyspareunia and infertility. The only way to know for sure if you have this is by laparoscopy. Which I have had done and it has been confirmed to be one of my issues. Endometriosis is often treated surgically upon diagnosis. I had as much removed as possible during my surgery. I do want to add that the rate of recurrence is very high. Moving on to the next issue I have.

MTHFR means Methylene Tetrahydrofolate Reductase. Nice BIG word for everyone there and that is why we call it MTHFR. The full name is quite a mouth full as you can see. The MTHFR gene is responsible for absorbing folate. (And of course, most readers familiar with trying to conceive have heard of the importance of folate/folic acid. Taking folic acid reduces the risk of having a baby with neural tube defects (which is why most of the grain products on the market are fortified with folate).) Research shows that high homocysteine levels and/or those with the mutation show a higher propensity for thrombosis (blood clots), arteriosclerosis (hardening of arteries), Alzheimer’s, stroke, heart attack, Fibromyalgia, migraines (especially with “Aura” migraines), osteoporotic fractures, bone marrow disorders and for those of child bearing years, it has found to be connected to higher incidences of down’s syndrome, spina bifida, other neural tube defects, trisomy, miscarriage, stillbirth, implantation failure, placental abruption, preeclampsia, higher incidences of autism, amongst others. Please see my older posts for more information on this disorder.

Now lets talk about hypothyroidism. Yes I have that as well. If what I had already was not enough I have another one to tell you about. Hypothyroidism is abnormally low thyroid hormone production. Some of the symptoms include slowed heart rate, tiredness, inability to tolerate cold, mental fatigue, and constipation. I take a thyroid medication to regulate this issue and I have blood tests to monitor my levels.

OK so now others asked me why one cycle of IVF is going to cost me $9,000.00.
There is no insurance that covers infertility in my area that is available to me. I have a preexisting condition now and can not get this coverage. The cost of the procedure in my area is the amount stated above for just one cycle. Believe me I have checked for a cheaper rate. I am not able to leave the state for a month with my husband in order for me to get it cheaper in another state. My husband is a police officer and can not get that amount of time off. Not to mention we would lose our house if he took a month off. I am creating jewelry by hand and selling it in an online store to raise the money for my infertility treatments. If you would like to help you can take a look at my jewelry at Jewelry for Hope on ArtFire. That link will take you strait to my shop.

I think that about covers the questions that I have received in the last few weeks. If you have any questions please comment and I will try to get them all answered for you.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Tammy is Offering a GIVEAWAY!!!!

2010-03-20T18:51:00.000-07:00

Tammy over at Tammy's Journey is super AWESOME. She has purchased some of my jewelry and really likes my work. All the money I make from my jewelry sales will go to pay for a round of IVF. So buying from my store is a great way to help me out and get handmade jewelry that is one of a kind. I make all my items with love. Tammy is hosting a giveaway on her blog for one of my pieces. She is giving away a birds nest necklace. Pop over to her blog and enter to WIN!!!

Tammy's Journey Birds Nest Necklace GiveAway

Thank you for supporting me Tammy you are the best!! :)

Baby Dust to All!!

Our New Addition

2010-03-17T21:31:00.000-07:00

This is the newest addition to our home:

This is Libby and she is excited that she is able to cuddle with Boober on the couch. The people that had her before us never let her sit on the couch. We are happy to have her and think the world of her. Our little Libby Lou. I have a feeling she is going to be very happy in her new home. She is a Jack Russell Terrier and we love her already.

I am super close to my 100th post! Can you believe it 100 posts? Comment and let me know what you want me to do for my 100th post.
Baby Dust to ALL!!

What a Mom does on a Saturday Night

2010-03-13T20:04:00.000-07:00

While all the hip cool kids are out partying what does a Mom of a 9 year old do on a Saturday night? Well my kiddo is home schooled so he does not get to play with kids during the week. He needs his social time too. Right? Here I sit at McDonald's sipping a coffee in the kids play area watching boober go nuts. I am so glad they brought back free WiFi. If not I would be going INSANE right about now.

Boober is getting so big! With his ADHD he has enough energy to send a rocket to the moon and back again. He never sits still. I would not change him for the world. I just wish time did not go by so fast. So what do us Moms do on the weekend? We go to the park, we go to McDonalds, we go any were the kids will have a good time. All the while praying they be careful and not get hurt. I hope everyone has a great weekend. I am going to need Tylenol before long it is mega loud in here.

I am running a SALE!!!

2010-03-05T23:37:00.001-07:00

For the month of March I will be running a SALE! Buy 2 get one free! I will refund the item of lesser value to your PayPal account after your order is complete. Or you can message me after you complete your order without payment. I will then send you a PayPal invoice for the amount minus the discounted item. :)

This is a FANTASTIC sale so pop over to my shops and take a look around.

Etsy Shop

ArtFire Shop

Now I am the lady that ALWAYS calls the cops on the kids!

2010-03-03T19:39:00.000-07:00

Can you believe this! Now I am known as the lady that always calls the cops on the kids in the neighbor hood. I called the police ONE time in the 10 years I have lived in my house. The kids were running in between houses shooting air soft BBs at each other, peoples cars and houses. They shot my car when I passed by them pulling into my drive way. They even shot the guys car that lives next door to me. There was BBs everywhere. Now my thought was I did not want one of them to damage someones property or for heaven sake shoot the other ones eye out. So I told them they needed to go somewhere else to do that and I got told to F off. I was like WHAT!!!! So I called my hubby (he is a deputy) and asked him what to do. He told me to call it in and dispatch would handle it. So I did. I found out today that I am now being called the Cop Calling Lady! Can you imagine? If I had gotten a better response from the kids or their parents were watching them they would not have been out there damaging others property. So the deputy that came out got the response I got from the kids cursing and disrespect so he impounded all the kids air soft guns and the BBs as well.

So my question to everyone is this:
Did I do the right thing by calling it in?
Can this title really be mine since I have called ONE time in 10 years?

Baby Dust to ALL!

A Week with Boober

2010-02-24T22:41:00.000-07:00

This week I have just hung out with Boober. We have been doing inside activities due to it raining almost nonstop the last few days. I have loads of polymer clay projects to get caught up on. I could not see messing with clay and not charishing every minute that Boober wants to spend with me. There is going to come a time when I am going to want to spend time with him and he is not going to want to spend it with me.

So I guess my message for this week is for everyone to spend all the time you can with your kids now while they want you there. Cherish every minute of every day with them. Love lots, smile lots and take a ton of pictures. They grow up to fast!

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

We Have a Winner!!

2010-02-21T20:25:00.001-07:00

We have a winner for the drawing for the cluster earrings!!!

Pop Over to Jewelry for Hope to see what is new!!

Congratulations!!

What Have I Been Up Too!

2010-02-12T13:42:00.001-07:00

I have been adding some new designs to my etsy store. I also made a little jack rabbit for my hubby and he just loves it. So today I think I will share his Jack Rabbit with you. :) Hope everyone likes him.

I sculpted him from polymer clay and then glazed him after baking. He was super fun to make and super cute.

Baby Dust to ALL!!

Valentines Gift Exchange

2010-02-08T20:56:00.002-07:00

I got paired with Morgan in Arizona and I sent her gift out today. I really hope she likes what is on the way. I can not list what I sent cas she has not gotten it yet. The exchange was hosted by Domestic Dork and was super fun.

In other news I have decided to be more positive. I have come to the conclusion that I do not need to be so darn down all the time. I am going to get happy if it kills me. LOL

Do not forget to head over to Jewelry for Hope to enter the drawing!

Jewelry for Hope

Baby Dust to ALL!!

Announcing The Jewelry for Hope February Giveaway!

2010-02-07T19:38:00.000-07:00

The Jewelry for Hope February Giveaway! Super cool and super excited about this one. :) If you love earrings you are going to go gaga over this pair of cluster earrings. So go enter to WIN!!

Jewelry for Hope

Good Luck to EVERYONE!!!

Baby Dust to ALL!!

Just a Lazy day

2010-02-02T22:47:00.000-07:00

Today was just a lazy day. I did not do anything today. I did make one bracelet but that was all I did. Except for the normal cooking for the boys I did not get anything done. Why is it when you try to just relax at the end of the day you feel like you are more behind than ever? I sit here thinking darn I could have gotten more done today but I did nothing. Where did the day go? It went way to fast. Oh well I guess I will have to make sure I get my but in gear tomorrow. LOL

Baby Dust to ALL!!

What to do?

2010-01-29T16:01:00.000-07:00

Hubby is not so sure about Clomid but my re wants to put me on it to force ovulation. Since I only ovulate maybe 2 times a year. Hubby sees it this way I can get pregnant when I do ovulate but I can not get passed 8 1/2 weeks. He wants the re to focus on why this is and not just the ovulation part. I am at a loss for what to do at this point. I know I need to get to the bottom of the cause of the miscarriages and I know I need to ovulate at the right times and not this messed up way my body is working at this point. My Re is not wanting me to go with herbs to try to get my body to function right. He wants me to go with the metformin but it makes me itch so bad. Hubby will not tell me what he did with my metformin. So taking that right now can not happen unless I find it. But I do not want to itch any longer either. It took about 4 days after hubby took my metformin away for the itching to stop. Now it has stopped and the only thing I have stopped taking is the metformin. We know that was the cause of the itching. What to do? I have no clue! Sorry for the rambling. LOL

Baby Dust to ALL!!

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BLOG AWARD

2010-01-28T05:17:00.000-07:00

Thank you so much Tammy you are AWESOME!!
The rules are simple - just give 7 fun facts about you and then nominate 7 people for the beautiful blogger award.

1. I have always been hyper even as a kid. I could never sit still. Now I know how my Mom felt. My little big man Boober is the same way.

2. My hubby is a deputy with the sheriff's department and Boober makes his lunch sometimes. He came home the other day and was telling me Boober made him bread sandwiches. I said WHAT and he showed me the bread with this super thin line of peanut butter on it. Poor guy. LOL

3. When my hair is long I want to cut it short but when it is short I can not wait for it to grow out. I guess I am never happy when it comes to my hair.

4. I am from Mississippi. Growing up we learned how to spell the state like this: M, I, crooked letter, crooked letter, I, crooked letter, crooked letter, I, hump back, hump back, I
It must have worked I still remember that to this day. LOL

5. My most favorite TV series ever is Charmed.

6. I am addicted to making jewelry.

7. I love my online friends. Y'all are AWESOME and I always know you understand me even when I just want to vent. YOU ROCK!!

I'm nominating the following:

UnicornMommy After a long road of secondary infertility she now has her wonderful little girl Hannah. Super fantastic person and a great Mom!

Nicole She is 26 weeks pregnant with a little girl. Very sweet and her blog is a joy.

Mary She just had her bouncing baby boy! Super sweet.

Stacie Having a hard time with infertility. She is an AWESOME person and I enjoy her blog very much.

Bottoms off and on the Table Super great person and a joy to read her blog. Go give her love she needs it.

Domestic Dork Her blog is funny and well put together. She also has an Etsy store like I do. Sharing the love is always better. :)

Baby Makin(g) Machine She is now 18 weeks pregnant! She is super funny and runs contests on her blog for infertility related giveaways.

I wish I could give this blog award to all the blogs that I follow. It is so hard to choose you are all fantastic.

Baby Dust to ALL!!

I needed a laugh! How about you?

2010-01-25T15:40:00.001-07:00

After such a bad time with AF and everything I needed a BIG laugh. Well I got it today from a friend in my e-mail and I had to share it.

This lady is SOOOOOOO funny. I could not pass up making you all laugh as well.
Keep laughing. That is the key to getting through the rough times.
Baby Dust to ALL!!

Boober announces our winner!!!

2010-01-16T14:39:00.002-07:00

Well I know you can not wait for the results of the contest any longer so I am posting the Winner NOW!!!

Jewelry for Hope

Congratulations to our WINNER!!!! Thank you for everyone who entered to win. Keep an eye out for our next contest. :)

Baby Dust to ALL!!

The contest has ended

2010-01-16T01:50:00.000-07:00

The contest is now closed. I will be posting other contests so keep an eye out for them. Since the contest ended at midnight Boober will be drawing the name of the winner in the morning. His bed time is 9:00 pm so it was to late for him to draw the winners name tonight. I will be posting a video of him drawing the winners name. He is super excited to be the one that announces the winner.

Baby Dust to ALL!!

I feel Like Death Warmed Over!

2010-01-11T15:00:00.000-07:00

Well my cycle started 2 days ago and I have cramps like you would not believe. That and everyone taking an aspirin regiment knows what happens during this time while on that stuff. SOOOOO not fun! I can not help but feel super bad during this time of the month. It is a constant reminder that my little pea is gone and I am missing a BIG part of me that should be growing safe inside. What a bummer of a week. Sorry to be such a downer right now. I am just hurting and needed to talk about my feelings. My hubby took my Metformin due to the reaction I am having with it. You know the itching and scratching. I know it is for the best that I do not take it due to that fact but I can not help but think I need it due to the PCOS. I know I am crazy but right now thoughts are running around in my head and they just will not quit. This is the time when I ask myself over and over what went wrong and what did I do to cause this to happen again. I am beating myself up and I need to stop and just breath. Your comments are such a comfort to me and I love and keep each and every one of them close to my heart. It makes me know I am not alone on this road of infertility. I want us all to get off this road and have our hopes and dreams come true. I pray for that all the time.

On another note:
It is not to late to enter the drawing to win the Birds Nest Earrings.

So hurry and enter to win NOW!! I will be running this contest for 2 weeks. You can enter to win the contest up until midnight on January 15, 2010

CLICK HERE TO ENTER TO WIN!!

Baby Dust to ALL!!

I could not wait!!

2010-01-01T16:55:00.001-07:00

LOL I could not wait a day or two to start the contest. It is live and up and running.

CLICK HERE TO ENTER TO WIN!!

Boober will be drawing the name of the winner.
I will be running this contest for 2 weeks. You can enter to win the contest up until midnight on January 15, 2010
Get your entries in now so you do not miss out. I know if I do not do something while I am thinking about it I forget to do it. LOL
Good luck everyone!! :) This is so much fun.

Here is what the winner will get :)

BABY DUST to ALL!!!

Happy New Year 2010

2010-01-01T02:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!

I am in high hopes that this year will be a good year. A year that all dreams come true. I am praying for a fantastic year. The best ever!! Last year was so hard this one has to be better right?? Give me a SHOUT OUT I love comments!! :)

Jewelry for Hope
ALL orders made in January will receive a surprise FREE gift with your order. I will also be announcing a free giveaway just for my blog so keep an eye out for the upcoming contest!!!

If you are not following my other blog this is a great time to add it to your favorites so you will get all the new updates and a chance to win an AWESOME FREE gift!! To enter the contest no purchase is necessary. I will be announcing the contest in the next 2 days. :-)

Here is just one of my new products I will be offering.

Click on the picture to see a larger image!!!

BABY Dust to ALL!!!!

Merry Christmas

2009-12-27T19:45:00.000-07:00

I would like to take a moment to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas. Leading up to Christmas this year was very hard on my family. I am so glad that Christmas day was a wonderful day with no problems.

All the problems that I have had with my fertility has really been rough on my family. We had another loss this year and it was as hard on us as our first loss. We really felt that pregnancy was going to be different and was going to be the one that held to term. We were wrong. It put us in a real financial hole and there was a point were we did not think there was going to be a Christmas for our family this year. We decided the hell with all the hospital bills and we had a great Christmas. We still have to deal with the bills but it is worth it to see Boober's face light up because he got what he wanted for Christmas.

Well I got the results from my sugar test and it came back high but not high enough for the doctor to issue a prescription for the monitoring supplies. Now why would my sugar levels come back high and me not be diabetic. Not to mention the fact I am taking 2000 mg of Metformin a day. That just does not make since to me. Plus the Metformin makes me itch like crazy so my hubby stole my pills and will not let me take them. He told me he is not going to let me take something that is making me scratch holes in my chest and that was that.

Merry Christmas to all!!

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Testing update

2009-12-07T08:36:00.000-07:00

I finally got my lab slip for the blood sugar testing and to test my liver function. I will be going to the lab in the morning to get the blood drawn. Right now I think the test is going to take 3 days to get the results but I will find out at the lab for sure.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Sugar Test and More

2009-12-02T21:39:00.000-07:00

I was suppose to get my lab slip today to get my HGB-A1C test done. It did not come in the mail today. So I am bummed out about that.

I have been making more jewelry for the IVF fund tho. Check this out:

Hand made!!! This is my Rosette ring that I make. I love this ring. :) If you want to take a look at the new items listed for sell please go here: Jewelry for Hope
I am working on more items and have more to list. I just have not uploaded the pictures yet for them. Christmas is coming and there is some great stuff up there.

But you are not here to talk about that!! LOL
I goofed and did not eat when I was suppose to today and I felt like I was going to pass out. Yeppers I got fuzzy headed and almost fell flat on my face. I caught myself before that happened. I ate a piece of candy and what do you know I felt better. HHHMMMMM Sounds like my sugar dropped to me!! Another sign of being diabetic. There are many things pointing to this and the doctors wonder why I think I am. Well duh dudes my body is telling me to have this looked at. ROFLAO Sometimes we just need to listen to our bodies and say to hell with what the doctors think and take matters into our own hands to make sure things get done. So my message for everyone today is to listen to your bodies and do what is best for you!!

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

HGB-A1C Blood Test and Chem Panel

2009-12-01T00:12:00.000-07:00

I have some good news. I called and demanded a blood test be done for my sugars. The test I demanded is the HGB-A1C. This test will tell how my body has handled sugar in the last 6 months. I also found out that Metformin can cause liver damage. I did not know this. With this new information I am going to have a chem panel done to check my liver function. After I called and spoke to the nurse she told me she would go over this with the doctor and call me back. She called me back about one hour later and informed me the doctor has approved me having the blood work and she would mail me the lab slip today and I should get it by Wednesday. So I will be having the blood draw on Thursday. I am not sure how long it will take to get the results but I will be finding that part out soon. I am just thrilled to be getting the tests finally done!! Well that is all for today.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Thoughts and Feelings

2009-11-29T19:04:00.000-07:00

I am sorry I have not posted. I have been in such a funk since the miscarriage. I can not seem to get out of this state of depression. I am just so mad and sad at the same time. I keep asking myself why me. It is questions that can not be answered. With all the problems that I have (MTHFR, PCOS, endometriosis, thyroid) and no one wanting to really fix them. All I get is lets try again. My mind is telling me something more is wrong and I can not even get the doctors to check my sugars. I am going to call on Monday and demand a diabetes test be done. My Mom is a nurse and I have told her what is going on with all symptoms and she tells me I am diabetic. I have a history of diabetes in my family I am shocked no one is willing to check my sugars.

I do feel I am not able to get out of this funk due to not posting. So I am going to be posting more and more. I feel this will help me to weed out my feelings and get them out. I have a bad habit of holding everything in until I pop and that I need to correct. I have to stop doing that. I am just making it worse if you know what I mean. Well that is all for tonight. I will post what I find out when I call the Doctor on Monday.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

A day with hubby and son!

2009-11-17T23:40:00.000-07:00

Today was a good day. We slept in till 12 and then loaded the car with model rockets. We then went way out in the desert and played with the rockets for most of the day. Super fun!! Boober and Hubby had a BLAST!!! We all hopped in the car and headed for the North Side. I wanted to go to the bead specialty store to pick up some stuff I needed. We got there and low and behold they had a ring mandrel!!! I am so super excited. I have been looking all over for one and now I have one. I will be making rings for my IVF fund site. I am having so much fun with the new tool. Can not wait to post the new rings on the site. Keep an eye out for them. I made a new button for the IVF fund site. If you would like to put the button on your blog the grab the code link is located on the left hand side of my blog and I thank you in advance for everyone who posts the button. All in all it was a super fun day! :)

Baby Dust to ALL and Sticky Dust as well!! (I know I could use lots of both.)

The joys of H1N1

2009-11-15T17:35:00.001-07:00

Well the last 2 weeks have been fun.... NOT >>>> LOL
Boober got the H1N1 virus and I had to take him to the doctor to get meds. He is feeling much better now but I have had a migraine for the last 3 days. YUCK. I was spraying Lysol like crazy all week. Thank God he is feeling better now tho.

I added more jewelry today to the fund raising blog: Jewelry for Hope lots of new items to choose from. There are some great Christmas ideas there :)

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Jewelry for Hope

2009-11-11T17:02:00.000-07:00

I have created a new blog called Jewelry for Hope. This blog is for selling my beaded jewelry to raise money for the infertility treatments that I will be incurring. I am hopeful that I will be able to raise enough money for at least one round of IVF. Check out my new blog and let me know what you all think. Thank you for your support in my time of loss as well. I miss my little pea very much.

Baby Dust to ALL!!

An example of my craft.

2009-11-10T12:56:00.000-07:00

I am posting some pictures of some of the jewelry that I made. Let me know if it is something that I can sell and if I should start making items to sell for my infertility treatment. Please be honest and tell me exactly what you think.

I am not sure why some of the pictures turned to the side, but here are some of the items I have made.

Baby Dust to ALL!!

Any Suggestions????

2009-11-08T02:13:00.000-07:00

Does anyone have any suggestions on how I can raise money for infertility treatments? I make beaded jewelry and was thinking about selling necklaces and bracelets. Is that a good idea? Just one round of IVF will cost $9000.00. In January my RE wants to start me on Clomid to increase the chances of ovulation. Due to my PCOS I do not ovulate regularly. Any suggestions would really help.

Thank you all!

Baby Dust to ALL!!

To remember my Little One

2009-10-29T03:06:00.000-07:00

I made this little video for a memorial to my little Pea.

Baby Dust to all!!!

Feelings After 4th Miscarriage

2009-10-15T15:24:00.003-07:00

This week has been hard for me. I feel so empty without my little Pea. Secondary infertility is not easy to live with. People will say "Sometimes this happens." or "This is how nature weeds out the bad eggs.". These things hurt people like me. The people that say these things do not know the pain I went through to get pregnant and they do not know the pain I have went through going through 4 miscarriages. I do not wish this pain on my worst enemy. TTC (trying to conceive) for a person with infertility is a very hard road to travel. But we travel this road hoping for our healthy babies. We have heart ache, pain, disappointment, anger and more but we press on. Just saying "I am sorry for your loss." is good enough for me. Do not tell me it is for the best or maybe something was wrong with my baby. Understanding is the key to comforting someone that is on this road. I am so glad to have so many blogger friends that understand what I am going through. I love you all and I thank you for your support. I just needed to get some feelings out and what better place to do it. I just need to heal emotionally. The physical healing is the easy part. I let myself believe everything was going to be fine with this last pregnancy. I let my guard down and I loved my little baby that was growing inside of me. Do not get me wrong I loved that little baby from the moment I found out I was pregnant. What I mean is I let myself believe everything was going to be perfect and it made it harder for me when I found out that I was losing my little one. So now for the healing to start.

Today, October 15th is pregnancy and infant loss awareness day.

Missing our babies today:
January 2006
January 2007
January 2009
October 2009

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

My First Blog Award

2009-10-11T12:31:00.004-07:00

I receive this award from "Hannah" @ My Infertility Journey. Thank you so much. You are super sweet. :)

Rules:
1. You Can Only Use One Word!
2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers
3. Alert them that you have given them this award!
4. Have Fun!

The Survey~
1. Where is your cell phone? Desk
2. Your hair? Brown
3. Your mother? Caring
4. Your father? Compassionate
5. Your favorite food? Pizza
6. Your dream last night? Sucked
7. Your favorite drink? StarBucks
8. Your dream/goal? Baby
9. What room are you in? Lining-Room
10. Your hobby? Crafts
11. Your fear? Another-Miscarriage
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Happy
13. Where were you last night? Home
14. Something that you aren’t? Complete
15. Muffins? Blue-Berry
16. Wish list item? Baby
17. Where did you grow up? Mississippi
18. Last thing you did? Meds
19. What are you wearing? Clothing
20. Your TV? TLC
21. Your pets? Lots
22. Friends? Best
23. Your life? Broken
24. Your mood? Depression
25. Missing someone? Little-Pea
26. Vehicle? Car
27. Something you’re not wearing? Shoes
28. Your favorite store? BestBuy
29. Your favorite color? Teal
30. When was the last time you laughed? Yesterday
31. Last time you cried? Today
32. Your best friend? Husband
33. One place that I go to over and over? Friends
34. One person who emails me regularly? Friend
35. Favorite place to eat? Cracker Barrel

I am awarding this blog award to~

1. Mary - A Hopeful Unicorn
2. UnicornMommy - UnicornMommy
3. Tammy - Tammy's Journey
4. Nicole - The Abramczyk's
5. WhatIF? - WhatIF?
6. Polly - In 2 Me See

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Emergency Ambulance Ride and Emergency Surgery

2009-10-10T00:02:00.003-07:00

On 10-05-2009 the pain got so bad that I could not take it any more. Then I started hemorrhaging. Hubby called an ambulance to come get me. I was taken to the hospital were they gave me morphine. The pain was so bad it only took the edge off. I then signed a blood transfusion waver due to the loss of blood. I was then taken for emergency surgery. The emergency D&C was preformed and then I woke up in recovery.

I feel very empty inside. I am not sure why this is happening to me for the 4th time. Dang 4 miscarriages!! What is wrong with me??? I am going to go back to the doctor in a week for the post op appointment and then I will see my re again after that. I will post more when my head is clear and I can think straight.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Going Natural

2009-10-03T20:38:00.003-07:00

I have made a decision. I am not going to have the D&C done. I have had 2 D&C's and a blighted ovum. The more D&C's you have the more scaring and damage to the uterus there is. I talked with my doctor and explained my choice to go natural. She has agreed and it is what is best for me at this time. I have not started bleeding and I still feel pregnant as of today. If nothing starts by Friday I will return to my doctor and we will do another ultrasound to see what is going on in there. But as of today I am on an emotional roller coaster ride just waiting for it to start. I am not sure why this is happening to me again. When someone tells me "Sometimes this just happens." I want to punch them and say "NOT 4 TIMES IT DOES NOT!!" There is more wrong with me than we know and this just proves it. If we try again I am thinking I need to go holistic. I feel I need to get back to nature. If anyone has any tips or sites that cover this area please let me know. Right now I am just going threw a lot of emotional pain, sadness, anger, unknowing and fear. I am not sure if I can go through this again. But I know for a fact my son can not go through this again. I will be even more careful to make sure he does not find out if we try again.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Bad News VERY Bad News!!!

2009-09-25T20:43:00.004-07:00

I had my doctors appointment today and my OB did our weekly ultrasound. My little Pea does not have a heart beat any longer. :( I was sent to a high risk clinic for another scan and to confirm there was no heart beat. Unfortunately it was then confirmed. My little Pea passed away at 8 weeks and 2 days according to the scans. My worst fears have come true again. This makes my 4th miscarriage. My heart is broken and I am not in a good state right now. I will post pictures of my little Pea later I just can not bring myself to do that at this time. My doctor wants me to call on Monday to schedule a D&C.

Please pray for my family during our time of grieving.

Baby Dust to ALL!!

Waiting for Friday

2009-09-22T20:57:00.002-07:00

Will Friday ever come???

I know it will. But the wait is killing me. I pray all the time for all my blogger friends and my little pea. I know what ever happens is God's will. I know this pregnancy is in his hands now and I should not worry. I am doing everything I can to make this pregnancy last. I am taking all my meds and doing all my blood work as soon as it is due. I am having my thyroid checked and re-checked like I am suppose to as well. I am going to all my doctor's appointments. So what is there left for me to do. Stop worrying that is what!! LOL Easier said than done right?? I am giving my worries to God. He will take care of us. I trust in him and know he is an AWESOME God and he will take care of me and my little pea!

I purchased a Fetal Heart Doppler. I will be posting pictures of the Doppler and a complete review as soon as it comes in. I will be testing the Doppler and posting the results. I will also post a complete review of all the features of the Doppler, the company I purchased the Doppler from and the shipping. Keep a look out for this post. I should be receiving my Doppler any day now.

Please keep my little pea in your prayers!!

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

8 Week UltraSound

2009-09-18T06:15:00.004-07:00

I had our 8 week ultrasound yesterday and everything went GREAT!! We are having another ultra sound done on the 25th. The baby is measuring 15.6 mm and the little heart is beating strong. We even saw the baby move on the ultrasound. It was AWESOME!!!! God is an AWESOME God!!

Thank you for all the prayers. They have really helped. Please keep them coming.

Baby Dust To ALL!!!

Another scan on the 17th

2009-09-16T20:14:00.004-07:00

I am going in to the doctor on the 17th for another ultrasound. I am very nervous about this scan. I will be 8 weeks 1 days. This is very close to when I lost my second baby. I am feeling like I should. I have felt sick all day which is a great thing. I am praying all the time that everything is fine. I wish I did not worry so much. I wish I could be happy and not have that what if in the back of my mind. I will be so glad when I get out of the first trimester. I will have such a weight lifted off my shoulders then. I will post an update tomorrow with all the details about my Doctor's visit.

Please pray for my little bean.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

4 more days untill my next scan!!

2009-09-13T21:38:00.002-07:00

It seems like this week has been going by so slow. It feels like the 17th is never going to get here. I have been so tired but that is a good thing. :) I felt like I was going to toss my cookies all day today. But that is a great thing as well. So far everything has been fine and I am feeling the way I should. I am just so nervous and excited. Boober keeps asking when I am going back to the doctor so he can see his baby sister again. We do not even know if it is a boy or a girl yet. LOL

Thank you so much to everyone that is praying for us. I can feel your warm thoughts and prayers. Please keep us in your prayers.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!!

Baby Update!!!

2009-09-09T22:03:00.003-07:00

Had my doctor's appointment today and everything went GREAT!!! The baby is measuring 7 wks 0 days. Right on track from last weeks scan. I am going back in on the 17th for another scan. We are not out of the woods yet but right now I am praising the Lord that everything is going good. :) The baby is now 9.4 mm!!! The heart beat is nice and strong.

Please keep those prayers coming they are really helping!!

Baby Dust To ALL!!!

Not out of the woods yet!!

2009-09-04T04:03:00.003-07:00

I had my sonogram done yesterday. I got there early but Doc H got me in right away. We started the sonogram and saw the sac on the screen 1st thing. We could not see the fetal pole. He measured the sac and it is 18 mm. Then the search was on from there. It felt like an eternity. I kept saying to myself "Everything is going to be fine. The baby is there. Please just find it." Then I had to remind myself to breath. That is when we found the fetal pole and the little beating heart. The sac is measuring 6 wks 2 days and the fetal pole is measuring 6 wks 0 days and is 4mm CRL. This may be due to my screwed up cycles. I go from 33 to 35 days in a cycle not the normal 28. The heart rate is 117 BPM. Right now my chances of miscarriage are 35 to 40%. On the 9th of September we are doing another sonogram at Dr. H's wife's office (yes my RE's wife is my OB LOL). Then if she can not get me in for another sonogram 1 week after that Doc H wants to do the Sono at his office. If everything goes fine for the next 2 weeks my chances of miscarriage will drop down to 7%!! So I am still worried. God is watching over us. I can feel it!

We can use all the prayers we can get right now!!!

Baby Dust to ALL!!

The 3rd of September

2009-08-30T17:43:00.002-07:00

The 3rd of September is almost here. On this day I have the sonogram done and I will get to see the baby. We will get to see if everything is alright in there. I am excited and very nervous all wrapped up in one.

Please God let everything be alright in there!!!

Baby Dust to all!!

Appointment Change!!

2009-08-26T08:22:00.003-07:00

I talked to Doc. H and he wants to see me before the 14th. So we rescheduled my appointment for September the 3rd at 10:30 a.m. I am so glad to get in sooner to see him. I can not help but be worried and I am trying not to be. Easier said than done right?? I want to be happy and oblivious to the problems that can happen. I want to be one of those people that can find out they are pregnant and not say "God please let this be the one." I want to want to tell the world but I can not. I want to be one of those people that can start working on the baby's room as soon as they find out they are expecting. I want to be able to look at baby outfits without bursting into tears and saying to my self "Please let everything be alright with my baby." This may sound crazy to some of my readers but, I know most of you know what I am feeling and understand. I just want to know everything is all right and going to stay that way. I do not want to have to worry. But that is something I do not have the privilege of anymore. I do not care if I puke for the entire pregnancy. I do not care if I feel tired (which I do very much so) and I do not care what pregnancy symptoms I have. It is all worth it in the end. Now I just need to get there. I do know it helps to write about my worries and makes me a little less stressed. That is a wonderful thing. Today I celebrate being pregnant, my wonderful parents, my beautiful son, my awesome husband, and everything in life God has granted me.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Going Crazy!!

2009-08-24T06:13:00.003-07:00

I am going crazy!! Doc. H's nurse told me he was going to want to see me at 6 weeks but she scheduled my first pregnancy appointment for the 14th of September and I will be 8 weeks along. With all my problems in the past I am freaking out that my first sonogram is that far out. I am going to be calling the office back today to try to get in earlier. Cas if I do not I am going to go completely MAD!!!

I am so nervous and scared. I am praying constantly that everything is OK. I need to know everything is fine. I need to know as soon as I can what is going on in there. I need to know my baby is doing well. I just need right now. After all the miscarriages and TTC for such a long time I am just so scared. I also find myself crying more over my baby angels.

Boober does not know yet but I think he is getting a clue. He told me the other day "Mommy there is a Baby in your tummy and it is growing and doing great. Mommy it is perfect." I almost busted into tears. How does he know? I have been so careful not to tell him. I do not want him to go through that again. Hell I do not want to go through that again. God is watching over me and I know he hears my cries.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

HCG Update

2009-08-21T14:20:00.007-07:00

Well ladies the results of my HCG test are in ................................... My level was 53 on Tuesday and on Thursday the levels went UP to 180!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am scheduled for an ultra sound on September 14th.

Doc H had the lab check my thyroid and my levels came back high in the T something. So this means I am hypothyroidism and I have an under active thyroid. So now I have a thyroid disorder to add to my other disorders. He called in a script for Levothyroxin and I will be taking that every day as well as all my other pills. We will be re checking my thyroid levels in 6 to 8 weeks. I will talk to Doc H on the 14th about re testing my levels sooner. I am taking 90 mg of progesterone every morning and will continue this through my 1st trimester.

My EDD is April 24th. Today I am 4 weeks 6 days pregnant.

Pray for my little miracle and me please :)
Sticky thoughts!!

Baby Dust to all!!!!!!

Checking HCG Levels again

2009-08-20T13:58:00.003-07:00

I went to check my HCG levels today and I will find out the results tomorrow. On Tuesday I went in and had the HCG levels checked and they were 50. So I need them to come back at least 100. I am so nervous!!!

When I got to the lab this morning I was the first one there. I was thinking this is GREAT. I will be out of here in no time. Not the case. That is what I get for thinking!! Well the lab lost my blood work order that the Doctor sent over. I was like "How do you lose someones blood work order? It was just sent yesterday at 11:00 am." She told me the fax machine must have glitched and they would not do the blood work without the order. So I got on the phone and called my Doctor. He called me right back and asked to speak to the lab technician. I handed her my phone and she told my Doctor "I am sorry but I can not take the blood work order over the phone you have to re fax it." Then she handed me back the phone. My Doctor was so upset with them. He apologised to me and I told him it was OK. About 2 hours later I got a call from the Doctor's office and they re faxed the blood work order and called the lab to make sure they had it. She asked me to go back to the lab and get the blood drawn. So back to the lab I went and thank God they had the paper work this time. So I had the blood draw and headed for home to start our home schooling session with Boober for the day.

I am so tired. It feels like all the energy has been drained out of me. LOL I have had morning sickness for the last week and I have tossed my cookies once already. Which is all wonderful and I am not complaining one little bit. LOL I got my progesterone and I am taking that every morning.

Sticky Baby Sticky Baby!!!! (I have been saying that over and over in my head.)

Baby Dust to ALL!!!!

The BIG Update!!!!!

2009-08-19T18:07:00.003-07:00

I am PREGNANT!!!!

I can not believe it my self but I am. My HCG came back 50 and we are rechecking in the morning and I am praying it is 100 then. I got my progesterone today and took my first dose. I am scared and happy all at once.

Please God let this be the one!!! Hold on little bean and GROW baby GROW!!!!

Baby Dust to all!!!

Baby Ava Update

2009-08-09T14:23:00.002-07:00

I want to thank everyone for their prayers. Baby Ava is home with her mom and dad and she is doing great. :)

Baby Dust to ALL!!!!

A trip to the park!!

2009-07-24T02:16:00.004-07:00

I took Boober to the park and decided I do not have any good pics of me at all. So I got out the digi camera and started getting some pics. I really like the way they turned out and this is just a few :)

Baby dust to ALL!!!

Cycle day 3

2009-07-19T23:40:00.002-07:00

Today is cycle day 3 and let me tell you these cramps are killing me. Hubby and I are going to be trying again this month to get pregnant. I am excited and scared all rolled up in one. My hormones are all out of whack and I want to cry. I know I will get threw this and move on. The 20th is my Hubby's B-Day and his day off so I hope I can make it a good day for him. I have to get out of my funk and get those pics off that camera of mine and post some of them.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!!

Working through the gross feelings!!

2009-07-14T11:04:00.003-07:00

Working through the yucky feelings from the Metformin have been a challenge for me. I hate to puck and I have been doing a bunch of it. It got so bad that Doc H lowered my dose back down to 500 mg for last week and this week. But then I go back to upping the dose again. I always know when I eat something that the meds do not like. It comes on FAST!! Like right after I eat I start feeling that gross feeling. Even some of the things I am told I can eat I can not keep down. Well enough about that.

I have been working out at the gym and taking aerobics classes. I really enjoy my water aerobics and I have started a new class called Body Works Plus Abs. That class is AWESOME!! I am working upper, lower body and core in that class. There is another class called Step Plus Abs and after taking that class I was sore for 3 days. LOL My legs hated me after that one.

Next cycle Hubby and I will start trying again to have a baby. I am praying that all this hard work will get us were we want to be. But I am so afraid of having another miscarriage. After having three it takes all the excitement out of finding out you are pregnant. I pray to God if we get a positive next month everything goes fine. I am super scared it will happen again and pray that that is not in my future. TTC after multiple miscarriages is really hard and with all my medical problems that makes it worse. Pray for me in the coming month.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!!

I have been sick!!!

2009-07-08T11:31:00.003-07:00

I have been so sick lately due to the Metformin that I have really not felt like doing anything. I am sorry I have not posted much lately. When I got to 2000 mg of Metformin a day my body said NO Way!! Well I spent 2 days over the toilet tossing my cookies big time. So I called Doc H and he lowered my dose back down so we can up it later when my body gets more use to the meds.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!!

Boober turned 9 years old!!!

2009-07-01T14:54:00.003-07:00

Yesterday was Boober's 9th birthday :) I can not believe my baby is 9 already. We had a little party for him and he loved it and had so much fun. The party was Transformers and Monster Trucks. Boober got to open presents, have chocolate ice cream and chocolate cake. Then hubby took him out to play paintball. He had a blast with that. He got 2 good shots off at his Dad before he could hide. He is still laughing about getting Dad and him not getting shot by the paint balls. They are planning to go again cas he had so much fun.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!!

Joined A Gym

2009-06-28T01:50:00.003-07:00

Well I did it!! LOL I joined a gym and I love it!! I joined the gym LA Fitness on Friday. I worked out Friday and today. I will be going back to the gym in the morning. All the classes are covered on my membership. So I can take any class I want for no additional fee!!! I am going to be doing water aerobics on Tuesdays and Thursdays for sure. I am going to be checking out the yoga class later next week as well. I am enjoying working out at a gym again. The best part is they have daycare for only $10.00 per month and I can put Boober in the daycare often as I want for that price. YES!!!! No need to worry about what days I can workout around my Hubbies work schedule.

Baby Dust to All!!!!!

HSG Test Results

2009-06-25T01:03:00.002-07:00

I had the HSG (Hysterosalpingogram) test done today and all went fine. I got a little cramping when the dye was inserted but other than that there was no pain. I was a little crampy for 2 hours after but it was not bad at all. Everything on the scan was great and there is no problems there. We also got our cryotyping back today and Hubby and I have no problems there. In the words of Doc H "You are both golden there." Thank God that those came out fine. I am so happy about that. I have to skip my Metformin for 2 days and I am on antibiotics for the next 7 days so I am going to be feeling much better. :)

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

HSG Test Today

2009-06-24T11:07:00.003-07:00

Well at 2:00 pm I will be getting the HSG test done. At 12:00 I have to take 600 mg of Ibuprofen. At 1:20 I have to take 2 Valium. We will be meeting Doc H at 1:30 for the procedure. I am very nervous.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Happy Fathers Day

2009-06-22T00:52:00.003-07:00

Happy Fathers Day to all the fathers out there. Weather you are a father with living children, a father to someones child, you are a mother and a father to a child or you have angel babies. You are still a father and today is your day. I wish you the best day ever today. If you are a father to angel babies just know your little ones are looking down on you and smiling and telling the angel next to him or her "Look that is MY dad!!"

Happy Fathers Day!!!!

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

HSG will be done on the 24th

2009-06-15T18:10:00.003-07:00

My HSG (Hysterosalpingogram) imaging test is now set to be done on the 24th of this month. I am very nervous about the test but I am sure I will be fine. LOL or should I say the Valium will make me fine for the test. I am instructed to take 2 Valium 30 min before the test. I am praying all is fine on the test and I do not have any problems with the dye.

Today is Day 1 of 1000 mg of Metformin. I am feeling a bit sicker today. I know it will pass but until then bear with me :)

Baby Dust to all!!!

Upping the dose of Metformin on Monday

2009-06-14T00:48:00.003-07:00

I start the 1000 mg of Metformin on Monday. So instead of 500 mg I will be starting the 1000 mg then. I am a little nervous about how my tummy will take the extra 500 mg. LOL My tummy has been very upset with me lately. Even tho I have felt like tossing my salad all over the place I have tried to eat. Sorry I have not been very active on my blogging. I have just felt so gross lately. :(

In 2 weeks I will be having my HSG test done and I am scared about the contrast dye. I am glad Doc H gave me Valium to take before the procedure so I will not be so up tight.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

185 lbs down to 171 lbs

2009-06-11T22:18:00.003-07:00

Well I am down from 185 lbs to 171 lbs :) This diet is a rough one but it seems to be working. LOL It is getting hard to do an hour of exercise a day when I am sick all the time on the Metformin. I had no idea I would be this nauseous. I have not thrown up yet but this is only 500 mg a day. Next week is going to be 1000 mg a day. Then the next week after that it will be 1500 mg a day. As if I was not punishing myself enough LOL after that we up it to 2000 mg a day. :) I know this will all be worth it when we have our little miracle.

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Metformin here we go!!

2009-06-09T03:49:00.003-07:00

Well today is day 1 for my Metformin!! I have lost weight and my pants are loose. I will give a complete update later on on the total weight lose to this point. I found a restaurant that I can eat at and it was so GOOD!! The restaurant is called Sweet Tomatoes and it is a salad buffet. I enjoyed myself so much there today. I was like a kid in a candy store!! I could eat most everything they had. It was so nice to be able to go somewhere and not have to ask for an ingredients list and then frown and say water please. LOL This diet is a super tough one. But I do know it will all be worth it :)

More to come once I have had some sleep.
Baby Dust to ALL!!!

14 Years Today

2009-06-04T15:56:00.003-07:00

Today is my 14 year anniversary to my Hubby. It does not seem like it has been 14 years. How time flies!! 14 years ago today I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off making sure everything was done and ready for the wedding. I look back and remember all the butterflies I had in my tummy. I remember the tear in my Dad's eye when he hugged me and told me he loved me before he walked me down. The look in my Mom's eye's when she fixed my vale. But most of all I remember the love in my hubbies eyes as he looked into my eyes. We were so young and so in love! WOW what a day!!

I love you my dear husband. You are the love of my life and the father of my son. You are my everything and I am yours. Here is to 14 more wonderful years together!! Happy Anniversary!!

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

3 LB's in 4 days!!!

2009-06-01T19:38:00.002-07:00

I have lost 3lbs in the last 4 days!! Can you believe it??? I am in SHOCK!! I am so hungry and tired but I know that is only because my body is use to having all those sugars and junk. So I just need to get threw this feeling. LOL I have noticed that if I eat more than this diet tells me to I feel like I ate to much. That is awesome!

My hubby was sick for the last few days so it was hard to post. He had some kind of bug. I am just glad Boober and I did not get it.

I am still waiting for my blood work to get back but, as soon as it does I will post the findings. I am praying nothing else is found.

Baby Dust to ALL!!

I am going to STARVE!!!

2009-05-27T04:02:00.004-07:00

I am going to starve!!!!

OK OK I know you are wondering what in the world is this crazy lady talking about. LOL
I had my appointment with Doc H and let me start off by saying he is AMAZING!! I found out that for my age and height I am over weight so that is not good. Doc H has put me on a massive diet. Let me tell you I can not eat anything. If God did not make it I can not eat it. If it is meat I can only have a piece that is the size of a deck of cards. I have to eat all vegetables and can only cook in olive oil. Not to mention I can not drink anything either. I am not a vegetarian but it looks like I am going to become one really quick. All of this is not due to the weight, now having to exercise 2 hours a day is but not the diet. LOL He looked at my lab work and I WAS RIGHT. The the blood work shows I am PCOS. I knew it!! He told me my levels are off and I need to be on Metformin. In a few hours I will go for more blood work and Hubby gets to have his blood drawn this time as well :)

Doc H did an ultrasound and found that my ovaries do not appear to have lots of cysts at this time. I am so thankful they are clear right now. But he did find that my endometrium is 7MM thick and I just got off my period this is not good. But the good news is we can fix this.

WE HAVE A PLAN!!!!!
I am so excited we now have a plan and a great doctor!! I left his office with HOPE and 4 prescriptions. I left knowing that I have PCOS and now a doctor knows it and is treating me for it. I left knowing someone is listening to ME!! I have tears in my eyes right now ... It has been so long since someone (doctors) would listen and understand what I am going through that I am so happy to have Doc H.

The Plan

Lab blood work on 5/27/09 Chempanel Basic, HDL, Prolactin, Cystic Fibrosis and others
Take Folgard, 81 mg aspirin, pre-baby vitamins, Metformin (listed below) and additional folic acid prescription.
Metformin = 500 mg tab
Week 1 = one per day
Week 2 = one pill twice daily
Week 3 = one pill three times daily
Week 4 = two pills twice daily
every week after continue two pills twice daily

On day one of next cycle call office to schedule HSG X-Ray
He gave me Valium to take 30 min before this appointment and then Doxycline for 14 days after treatment.

Then we go from there :)

Did you know how many items have high fructose corn syrup in them?? EVERYTHING ..... Well not everything but dang near it. I was in shock at how many products have this in it. I found out from Doc H that high fructose corn syrup and modified corn starch should be considered poison to your body and that of your children and future children. I did not know this at all. I checked and even my mayonnaise has it in it!! Can you believe that?? I mean DAMN it is in everything and it is SUPER BAD for you. Read your labels and see just how much of this crap we are eating. I am floored and I know what I am going to be doing .... throwing all that stuff out that is for sure.

Well I could not sleep and wanted to tell everyone about my appointment. But now that I have I am super tired. Hubby and I went on a 3 1/2 mile bike ride tonight and I think it just hit me. LOL

Baby Dust to all :)

Tuesday is almost here!!!

2009-05-24T02:19:00.003-07:00

Tuesday is almost here!! I can not wait to go see Doc H. My appointment is at 1:00 pm on the 26th. I just know he can help me. :)

Today I made double chocolate fudge brownies. They were soooo good. Boober LOVED them and asked "Mommy can you make these everyday?" I told him if I did that I would be as fat as the house. "Giggles" He told me he would still love me no matter how big I got. I was like that is so sweet but Mommy does not want to gain any more unless I am prego. "Giggles"

The things that kids say!!

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

Last Day of School

2009-05-20T16:51:00.004-07:00

Boober is giving me such a hard time today. He knows that he has to get his work done and today is the last day of school. So he is trying to test me. He thinks just because it is the last day of school he can take forever to get his work done. I tell you today I want to pull my hair out. LOL The joys of teaching at home. But I know he is getting a better education at home than he would ever get in public school. With his ADHD when he was in regular school he stayed in the office for not being able to sit still when I was not there. So I started always being at the school in his class helping the teacher keep Boober on track. Then it hit me that he was getting behind due to his condition. I pulled him from regular school and started home schooling him. It is so much better on him but, it is harder on me. The things we do for our kids education!

Do not get me wrong. I love Boober and I love teaching him. He just gets the better of me some days and I need to vent. Then I can get my head back into the work, figure out why he is having trouble and change the way it is presented to him for his learning style. This he could never get in regular school. Summer is almost here!!!!!

Baby Dust to all :)

Giving Thanks

2009-05-20T04:22:00.004-07:00

Today I am giving thanks for everything good in my life and for all the good in my blogger friends lives as well. :)

Psalm 100 came to mind today:

Shout to the Lord, all the earth. Worship the Lord with gladness; come before him with joyful songs. Know that the Lord is God. It is he who made us, and we are his; we are his people, the sheep of his pasture. Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; and give thanks to him and praise his name. For the Lord is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations.

God is an awesome God!!
One more week to my appointment with Doc H. I am very excited and I know he can help me. I do not know why but, I feel this appointment will be answered prayers. This doctor is the doctor God wants me to see. I feel like he is meant to help me.

Baby Dust to everyone :)

Update on Baby Ava

2009-05-17T05:05:00.003-07:00

I talked to Baby Ava's Dad today and she is doing good. She is still undergoing light treatment and is still on oxygen. She has a heart murmur so they are monitoring her heart. She has a feeding tube in place and is still in the NICU. The NICU nurses said she got warm and kicked off her little blanket and tried to remove her heart monitor the other day. So she is a little fighter. LOL

She is not out of the woods yet and is still in need of all our prayers. Baby Ava's Mom and Dad are a wreck right now so they have not gotten me pictures of her yet. Which is understandable. As soon as I get pictures of this little beauty I will post them so everyone can see her.

God bless Baby Ava and keep her safe!!

That old Funk

2009-05-15T17:30:00.006-07:00

You know how you get into one of those old funks and can not seem to get anything done? Well I was in one for about a week. Now that I am out of it I am looking around and DANG!!!! My house is a WRECK!!! I have been doing laundry all day and picking up toys. They are everywhere. Boober has found new places to stick stuff. I have not told him to clean his room in a week so you can imagine it looks like a BOMB went off in there. LOL So now I am running around trying to make this place look 1/2 way decent today. LOL Lots of work!

I got all the paper work done for my RE appointment and now I am just waiting for the 26th to get here. I am not a big fan of waiting. LOL

I have a new hobby. It is Digi Scrapbooking with photoshop elements. I even made a blog about it. Which is awesome cas I never do anything for me. I tend to forget to stop and just do something for me. Which is important we all know. But easier said than done. Which we all know that as well!!

At least I have not forgotten to take my meds. (Due to the fact I have sticky notes on every place I can think of with a reminder.) I home school my son which I am not sure if I mentioned before and we can not wait for summer to start so we can have a break. Boober is ADHD and getting through his lessons some days is really hard. But we manage to get it all done. Bobber is going to be making a money jar tomorrow and decorating it. It is the pool fund. For every book he reads and tells us what the story is about he gets money to put in his pool fund. Once there is enough money in the jar I will take him for a pool day. Somewhere fun like Breakers Water Park. He is super excited about that. :)

I will have an update on how Baby Ava is doing soon. I am going to be calling her Dad tonight.

Well there went the buzzer on the washer. Time to transfer the clothing to the dryer and start another load going in the wash. A Moms work is never done.

Baby Dust to everyone :)

A Gift for my Mom :)

2009-05-14T03:58:00.004-07:00

Well I made a little gift for my Mom today and I wanted to share it with everyone :) I hope you enjoy it :)

This is a page of Boobers 1st birthday. My mom did not have pictures of his 1st birthday and I thought she did. When I found out she had nothing to remember this day I had to make her something super cute. Look how he tore into that cake. LOL I sent it to her this morning and she loved it.

I am so glad you liked it Mom I love you :)

The New Look

2009-05-12T22:50:00.003-07:00

My new look is coming but in the mean time I wanted to show everyone what great work Jen does. This is one of her free blog layouts from her design site. :)

If you are looking to change your blog up and give it a new jazzy style Jen has some awesome fee blog layouts. She also does custom work. Thank you again Jen for what you are doing for my new look and I can not wait to get it up and running.

Well I just love her layouts and I wanted to show everyone how great it looks applied to a blog. This way I get a new look while we are working on my custom design. :) I do want to add that Jen has super simple instructions on how to apply her layouts to your blog. It was easy to follow and took no time at all :)

Baby Ava needs our prayers!!

2009-05-12T16:51:00.007-07:00

Baby Ava needs our prayers!!! A friend of ours Ashlei was discovered to have Preeclampsia and had to be induced on 5-10-09. Little Ava Victoria was born at 2:20 am on 5/11/09. She is 2lb and 8oz. She is such a little beauty. She is in the NICU and the nurses tell us she is doing good. But we know how fast things can change. My heart goes out to her mother Ashlei and her father Justin during this time. God is an AWESOME God!! Please add little Ava to your prayer lists. I am making a prayer button for her that will be available very soon.

UPDATE:

The grab it button is now up and running. You can get the code in the bar on the right. Baby Ava does not have a blog so I will be posting her pics on my blog and I will be updating everyone on how she is doing.

I WON THE BLOG MAKEOVER!!!!!!!

2009-05-12T02:00:00.004-07:00

I WON!!!!!
I can not believe I won :) I never win anything!! I am super HAPPY and I can not wait for my new look :)
Thank you so much Jen this is going to be AWESOME!!!
Check out Jen's blog here: Following the Footsteps

This is the post were the winners of the contest are listed: Crazy Eights Winners!!!!

Check back to see all the awesome changes to come. This blog makeover is going to be super AWESOME. Thank you again Jen. I can not wait. :) :) :)

Finding something out you did not know!

2009-05-11T16:11:00.005-07:00

Have you ever found out something about your self that you did not know and wish you had known? I was filling out all the paperwork for the appointment with Doc. H and called my Mom to get the history questions answered. Let me tell you I found out I have more things in my past history that are big red flags. I just did not know about them. I found out that I had pneumonia from the age of 2 days old off and on until I was 4 years old!!! Can you believe I had no idea of this?? Talk about information I should have known.

I found out that in my family history I have loads of problems as well. :( At least now I know a complete background of everything going on health wise in my family. Let me see here hhhhmmmmm
I did not know that my Mom had a miscarriage before she had my brother. I knew my Dad had cancer. I did not know my grandmother and Mother both have thyroid problems. I did not know my Mom has blood clotting disorders. Which I should have known due to the MTHFR. I knew my mother has diabetes but, I never knew my grandmother has it as well. Both my grandfather on my mom and my dad's side had heart disease. It is amazing what you learn from filling out a 10 page medical history report for the RE. At least now I know all this information and maybe just maybe it will help Doc. H help me to conceive and hold a baby to term. Which I have not been able to do since my son was born. He is almost 9 and I can not believe he is getting so big. I look into his eyes and I can still see my little Boober taking his first steps.

Today I am praying for all my blogger friends and there little ones (grow little babies your Mommies love you so much). It must be the year of miracles. So many are prego right now and I am supper happy for each and everyone of them. :) It gives me hope and shows that God is such an AWESOME God. Miracles do happen I am just waiting for mine. :)

Baby Dust to ALL!!!

CRAZY EIGHTS!!!

2009-05-11T02:02:00.004-07:00

Following the Footsteps is putting on a super give away. All you had to do is find the crazy eights in her blog posts and post them in the giveaway to win a blog button or a blog makeover. I have entered a LOT in the blog makeover and I soooooo want to WIN. It is an awesome contest and I would like to take the time to thank Jen for putting this on. This contest is in celebration of her 800th post. That is super awesome Jen!! Congrats on your 800th post :)

You can read all about it in this post: Crazy Eights.
I really want to win one of those blog makeovers :) Thank you again Jen for doing this contest it is AWESOME :) :) :) I hope next time I am quick enough to post a blog entry on any new things she does before it ends. Pop over and check out her blog it is super fun. I promise to be on the ball next time and let you know about cool contests before they end in the future.

Internet was down

2009-05-09T19:58:00.003-07:00

Sorry I have not posted in a few days. My Internet and phone has been down for a week. I called the cable company and they finally came to see what the problem was. They got here yesterday and the tech tells me there is errors coming in from the street like crazy. I was like so what does that mean? He tells me well the problem is not in the house it is coming from out side the house. I was like so what now? He tells me he is going to call in the line technicians to run the line and see were the problem is. Well this morning I got a call from the line tech and he asks me when this started. I told him I have been getting digital distortion on the TV and the Internet has been going out for a month. Then I explain the customer service kept resetting the box and said it would fix it. The distortion got bad a week ago and it was 24/7 and the Internet was down completely. The customer service finally set up a tech to come out and he called in the line tech. The line tech told me "Well this is what has happened I found the problem and it has been fixed." I was like "Well what did you find?" He was like "Someone was stealing your signal and that was cosing all the problems." I was like "WTF" He told me that they were tracking down the house that tied into our signal and they would be charging them with theft of services. So that is my sorted tell of how I lost Internet and TV for a week. LOL

Baby Dust to ALL :)

Awesome News

2009-05-06T22:09:00.002-07:00

I got a call from Doc H's office and my appointment has been moved up to May 26th. YES!!! I am so glad I am getting in 2 weeks earlier :)

I took my son fishing and he caught a big catfish. Boober always catches the biggest fish when we go and he LOVES it. LOL I can not believe Boober is almost 9 years old. I wanted Boober to have siblings that were closer to his age. I never wanted to wait this long to have more kids. If I could rewind time I would have started when he was 1 instead of 3 :( We live and we learn. Well that is my ramblings for tonight.

Baby Dust to All :)

Cycle Day 17

2009-05-03T19:26:00.004-07:00

Today marks cycle day 17. I have been super tired the last few days. A friend of mine called me at 3:00 am to tell me he was in the hospital. 6 calls later and it was 7:00 am I was driving across town to get him from there and take him to get his scripts and take him home. Thank God it was only a stone and he passed it fine. But I was so beat from no sleep that I am still catching up on sleep. LOL I am so glad he is better and it was nothing serious.

Today I just slept most of the day. I did manage to get up and do one errand before I was super tired again. Ever have those days where no matter how much you sleep you are still tired? Well that is me today.

10 Tips for Facing Infertility

2009-05-02T02:44:00.002-07:00

1. Keep reminding yourself that you are not alone.
2. Realize that dealing with infertility is an all-consuming process.
3. Stay calm.
4. Remind yourself you are not a failure if a procedure doesn't work.
5. Have a since of humor about this - even if it doesn't seem at all funny right now.
6. Do your research. Then do some more.
7. Listen to your body and your inner self. If you really listen, you'll learn those two are rarely wrong.
8. Don't rule anything out - from antibiotics to acupuncture and from yoga headstands to standing on your head during sex.
9. Find the right doctor.
10. Don't get angry at your partner for not nurturing you - he is hurting and confused, too.

Some of these made me laugh. But I can see the point in each one. I got this from a book I read about infertility and thought I would share.

The moment a woman decides she wants a Baby!!

2009-05-01T20:33:00.003-07:00

From the moment a woman decides she wants a baby, trying to conceive takes on a whole new meaning. For most women, becoming a mother is easy. But for others, it's NOT.

Did you know one in six American couples experience infertility? For a woman lost in baby lust, the very world around them stings like a slap in the face. The unfair part? (Yea, as if there could be anything more unfair than not being able to have the family you've always wanted.) Infertility blasts the baby dreams of everyone with this condition, regardless of age, class, or economic standing. From teachers, nurses, and sells clerks to CEO's and celebs like Brook Shields and Joan Lunden. Even couples that already have a child may experience secondary infertility when they try to give their little one a sibling. This is my story. I have secondary infertility. I know the pain and panic of infertility. I also know the blessed joy of pregnancy and motherhood. Somehow my marriage and I have survived this far. Along the way I have learned more about my body and how it functions, how babies are really brought into this world and what to expect when you're trying to expect than I ever imagined. Let me tell you it is allot more complex than high school sex-ed classes lead you to believe!! I have endured the anguish of multiple miscarriages and secondary infertility and let me tell you it SUCKS!!!! Right now I simply feel left out as if Mother Nature is playing a very sick joke on me while God is busy working miracles elsewhere. I know in my heart that God is with me do not get me wrong that is just how I am feeling right now. I did feel alone until I started this blog and found all of the wonderful ladies that are going through the same things I am going through. I am very grateful for the support of each and everyone of you. You are my strength that gives me hope to continue.

Cycle Day 14

2009-04-30T19:09:00.003-07:00

Well today is cycle day 14. Today I have had some cramping like a cyst rupturing again. This time in the right side. The last one was in the left side. So it has been one of those yucky days. I have not felt like doing anything today. I need to get out of this funk I am in. This week has just dragged by and Friday is almost here thank God. June 15th I get to see Doc. H and I am feeling like it is never going to get here. I hate to wait. LOL

I want to do so many things but just can not get motivated to do anything. I hate days like this.
On another note:
Yesterday was my friend Gary's Birth Day!!
Happy Birthday Gary :)